This Again?

So I think I have found myself interested in a boy again.  He fits the definition of tall, dark, and handsome.  He is very different that my usual type which is normally talk, light hair, and not to handsome.  I've known this guy for awhile so it's not like he is a strange to me or anything.  We have been getting to know each other pretty well now for the past year.  I never would have thought our paths would have ever crossed again, but strangely enough they did.  I remember sitting there and wondering what in the world he was doing here.  It's not like he was a good kid when we were younger or anything, but after we got together and began to discuss our lives since we have both gone to college, I found out he was actually a really good guy now.  Guess it's true, you should never judge a book by it's cover.  Good thing I didn't because I would have never gotten to know this awesome guy and became good friends with him.  Who knows what will happen in the future with a possible relationship, all I know now is I want to continue that have a close relationship with him and continue to have a healthy relationship with one another.  I guess we will have to see where this goes over the summer.  Goodbye school.  Hello Summer!!!!

Love

I can't wait until the day that I finally find the love of my life.  We all have always waited for that day.  I think the thing that always blows my mind is the fact that I may have already met him and still haven't realized that I am in love with him.  At my college I see couples everywhere.  I can't walk outside anymore without seeing a couple holding hands or sitting on the field together or even just drink coffee outside our coffee shop.  Since being here I have been more concerned with finding someone than I have ever been in my life.  This is the longest I have ever gone without having a boyfriend and I am honestly proud of that.  Being single in college has given me the opportunity to figure out what I want out of life.  Since being single I have moved to a different town 3 hours away from home, made new friends and lost some around the way, realized I no longer want to be a teacher and changed my major to Public Relations, watched every episode of Grey's Anatomy in a month and a half, actually preformed on a stage, got bangs, and many many other things.  Though I am concerned with finding the love of my life, I have come to the conclusion that if/when I do I will have to make sure I am still living my life for me and not for him.  I want to make sure I'm still doing everything I want to be doing.  I don't want to make the same mistakes that I have made in that past.

Spring

I can't believe how fast the entire 2012-2013 school year went by!  We have about 3 weeks left and I am beging to feel very overwhelmed with papers and grades.  I feel like we just got here and began to get to know each other, it's hard to believe that we will all be packing up soon to go back to our home lives.  I have to say that I feel very bless with the privilege to come to Greenville College and that I was able to meet that people that I was able to meet and to be able to have the of the experiences that I was able to be a part of.  Since being here I have changed my major, made friends and lost friends, I have been able to try new things and figure out what I like and what I don't like.  All of these things are part of growing up and becoming an adult.  It's crazy how fast these years are going by.  Soon we will all graduate and go off into the world and live completely different lives than we are living now.  My friends from high school and my friends from college will soon become different people and the chances that we all stay in touch seem to be slimmer and slimmer each day.  Welp, that's all for now!  Until next time my friends!

Thanksgiving

Lately I have been thinking about everything I am grateful for.

• I am thankful for my health.
• My family.
• My friends.
• My relationship with God.
• My education.
• Being able to have a shelter over my head.
• Clothes on my back.
• Always being able to count on a meal.

And so many other things.  I feel like we take so many of these things for granted.  Lately my eyes have been opened to those who are less fortunate than we are and it just warms my heart to think about  how thankful they are for the little things they do have.  We get so caught up in what society tells us we need to be happy that we forget to be grateful for the things we do have.

Friendship

So lately I have been going through a hard time at school and wondering why God had placed me here.  It didn't seem like I was fitting in well and I found it was actually difficult for me to make friends.  It's easy to meet new people and some you may call friend, but there is a difference in being called a friend and being an actual friend.  I found myself secluding myself lately and spending a lot of my time alone. I don't know what I'm actually suppose to do with the rest of my life or what I'm actually going to major in.  My life was starting to get extremely stressful and I didn't know how to handle it.  When you make a drastic change in your life you normally don't know how you are going to handle it.  I know God has a plan for me and it will all work itself out in the end, but right now I don't know what is happening.  This weekend I went to camp.  I was able to be myself for the first time in a long time.  It felt good to have my friends around me and to have them help lift me up in so many different ways.  They probably don't know it but so many people made this weekend the best weekend I have had in a long time.  My cabin was awesome and I was lucky enough to have a great group of girls and do some awesome devotions with them.  I was also able to meet up with some old friends and catch up with them.  One friend stood out to me though.  He made a comment to me that really made me think.  As I stated earlier I know God is in control and I guess I had forgotten that, but thanks to this friend I was able to make that connection again.  Even though there are going to be tough times in my life I have to always remember that God is in control.  I also need to remember no matter how alone I may feel at school I will always have a great group of friends waiting for me when I return home.  So really in the blog I just want to say thank you to all of you that were able to make this weekend awesome for me!  Thank you for being you.  Thanks for coming to camp and loving God.  I also want to say thanks to my friends here that have taken time out of their days to listen to me and help me out.  You guys mean so much to me and I want you to remember that I am always hear to listen any of you when you are having a problem in your lives.  Sometimes I forget how blessed I am for all the wonderful people who have been placed in my life.  I know who my true friends are and you are all pretty amazing!  So once again thanks for all of you who have been there to listen to me the past couple days and thank you to my awesome friends at Faith Bible Camp for making this weekend awesome!  I can't wait to spend the entire summer with you all!  I love you all so much!

Bad days?

Bad days, ever have one of those?  Chance are we all have had bad days.  Bad week, that's what I seem to be having.  I'm having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad week, and it's only Monday.  Actually my bad week started last week.  Nothing seems to be going the way I expected it to go, and to top that all off I haven't been feeling the healthiest (Insert whiney face).  What to do, what to do?  Well here is a check list.

[x] Sleep any free moment
[x] Seclude myself from the world
[x] Watch movies
[x] Write
[x] Read
[x] Eat every in sight

Sound familiar to anyone?  I imagine some of them do.  Well here's to hoping this will be a better week!
Bible verse of the week for me:
"Now may the Lord of peace himself, give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with you all."---2 Thessalonians 3:16

This I Believe

In high school, during my Current Issues class, my teacher gave us a new assignment.  We had to write a paper about what we believed in.  It didn't have to necessarily be about our religious beliefs, it could be about anything.  So I wrote my paper and I did so for many of her other classes, and for other teachers.  I wrote my last one about 2-3 years ago and recently I found myself thinking about the past papers I had written, so I decided to write a more recent one.

This I believe

I believe the choices we make in our lives help shape the person we are today.  Sure we are not all proud of our pasts, but without them would we be where we are today? Would we have the same views? Would we still make those choices at some point in the future?
For me, I have made my fair share lousy decisions in my lifetime.  Yes, I do regret a good amount of them but without my regrets, I would not be the same person I am today.  I know for a fact they have all helped shape me into the person I am today, without them I have no idea what kind of person I would be and where I would be.
I may not have the body I want, or get the grades I want, or lead the life I think I should be leading, or have the relationship with my family that I wish I had, but all in all I am happy with where I am in my life.  I am currently at the college I want to be at, I have awesome friends, and I have an amazing support group.  But most of all, I have a God that loves me no matter what I do.  Sure I struggle with multiple issues, and everyone does, but as long as we have that strong support system and a strong faith, you can make it through just about anything. This is what I strongly believe.