Thanksgiving

Lately I have been thinking about everything I am grateful for.

• I am thankful for my health.
• My family.
• My friends.
• My relationship with God.
• My education.
• Being able to have a shelter over my head.
• Clothes on my back.
• Always being able to count on a meal.

And so many other things.  I feel like we take so many of these things for granted.  Lately my eyes have been opened to those who are less fortunate than we are and it just warms my heart to think about  how thankful they are for the little things they do have.  We get so caught up in what society tells us we need to be happy that we forget to be grateful for the things we do have.

Friendship

So lately I have been going through a hard time at school and wondering why God had placed me here.  It didn't seem like I was fitting in well and I found it was actually difficult for me to make friends.  It's easy to meet new people and some you may call friend, but there is a difference in being called a friend and being an actual friend.  I found myself secluding myself lately and spending a lot of my time alone. I don't know what I'm actually suppose to do with the rest of my life or what I'm actually going to major in.  My life was starting to get extremely stressful and I didn't know how to handle it.  When you make a drastic change in your life you normally don't know how you are going to handle it.  I know God has a plan for me and it will all work itself out in the end, but right now I don't know what is happening.  This weekend I went to camp.  I was able to be myself for the first time in a long time.  It felt good to have my friends around me and to have them help lift me up in so many different ways.  They probably don't know it but so many people made this weekend the best weekend I have had in a long time.  My cabin was awesome and I was lucky enough to have a great group of girls and do some awesome devotions with them.  I was also able to meet up with some old friends and catch up with them.  One friend stood out to me though.  He made a comment to me that really made me think.  As I stated earlier I know God is in control and I guess I had forgotten that, but thanks to this friend I was able to make that connection again.  Even though there are going to be tough times in my life I have to always remember that God is in control.  I also need to remember no matter how alone I may feel at school I will always have a great group of friends waiting for me when I return home.  So really in the blog I just want to say thank you to all of you that were able to make this weekend awesome for me!  Thank you for being you.  Thanks for coming to camp and loving God.  I also want to say thanks to my friends here that have taken time out of their days to listen to me and help me out.  You guys mean so much to me and I want you to remember that I am always hear to listen any of you when you are having a problem in your lives.  Sometimes I forget how blessed I am for all the wonderful people who have been placed in my life.  I know who my true friends are and you are all pretty amazing!  So once again thanks for all of you who have been there to listen to me the past couple days and thank you to my awesome friends at Faith Bible Camp for making this weekend awesome!  I can't wait to spend the entire summer with you all!  I love you all so much!

Bad days?

Bad days, ever have one of those?  Chance are we all have had bad days.  Bad week, that's what I seem to be having.  I'm having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad week, and it's only Monday.  Actually my bad week started last week.  Nothing seems to be going the way I expected it to go, and to top that all off I haven't been feeling the healthiest (Insert whiney face).  What to do, what to do?  Well here is a check list.

[x] Sleep any free moment
[x] Seclude myself from the world
[x] Watch movies
[x] Write
[x] Read
[x] Eat every in sight

Sound familiar to anyone?  I imagine some of them do.  Well here's to hoping this will be a better week!
Bible verse of the week for me:
"Now may the Lord of peace himself, give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with you all."---2 Thessalonians 3:16

This I Believe

In high school, during my Current Issues class, my teacher gave us a new assignment.  We had to write a paper about what we believed in.  It didn't have to necessarily be about our religious beliefs, it could be about anything.  So I wrote my paper and I did so for many of her other classes, and for other teachers.  I wrote my last one about 2-3 years ago and recently I found myself thinking about the past papers I had written, so I decided to write a more recent one.

This I believe

I believe the choices we make in our lives help shape the person we are today.  Sure we are not all proud of our pasts, but without them would we be where we are today? Would we have the same views? Would we still make those choices at some point in the future?
For me, I have made my fair share lousy decisions in my lifetime.  Yes, I do regret a good amount of them but without my regrets, I would not be the same person I am today.  I know for a fact they have all helped shape me into the person I am today, without them I have no idea what kind of person I would be and where I would be.
I may not have the body I want, or get the grades I want, or lead the life I think I should be leading, or have the relationship with my family that I wish I had, but all in all I am happy with where I am in my life.  I am currently at the college I want to be at, I have awesome friends, and I have an amazing support group.  But most of all, I have a God that loves me no matter what I do.  Sure I struggle with multiple issues, and everyone does, but as long as we have that strong support system and a strong faith, you can make it through just about anything. This is what I strongly believe.

Something New

Since the last time I've posted I would say numerous things have happened in my life.  First off I graduated high school and went on my missions trip to Romania.  Then I went to ICC for a semester and decided that it wasn't for me.  So I decided to work for the second semester and the whole summer.  I was also accepted to my first choice college, Greenville College, so I will be attending there for the 2012-2013 school year.  I have finally settled on a major, Special Education with an endorsement in English.  I plan on graduating in spring of 2016 and go on to teach in a school in need, and who knows where that will take me.  I am very excited to embark on this new journey God has in store for me.  I know he has a plan for me but I know as long as I trust in him, everything will go smoothly. 

Wait

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy? But at the same time, you don't know exactly whats wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could have anything in the world, it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting, and being alone never felt so good. At least when your alone no one will constantly ask you "whats wrong", and there isn't anyone who won't take "I don't know" for an answer. You feel the way you do just because you hope the feelings will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then, all you can do is wait.