What if..

What if I would have just let it all go and kept it all hidden?
What if I never met you, would my life be any different?
What if I never fell in love would you, would I still know what I know today?
What if you never hurt me, would I still love you?
What if I never would have let you go, would I still be with you?
What if a year ago none of this actually happened?
What if I never ended things with you?
What if we never introduced ourselves to each other?
What if we had never gotten to know each other?
What if I never said yes to you, would you still be trying?
What if we never fell in love…

That was then and this is now.

Do you remember me? The girl you once said you loved.  The person you said you wanted to spend the rest of your life with.  Remember me now?

Well I still remember you.  I still remember how I once felt about you and how much I once loved you.  I remember all the good times we once shared and all the happy memories I have with you.

Can you tell me what happened?  Are you able to tell me what went wrong?  We were fine one day and then the next we were nothing.

I still miss you.  Did you know that?  Did that thought even cross your mind?  I still think about you sometimes.  I think about you and me and how different our lives are now.  I try to think about what our lives would have been like if  we were still together.

I wonder if we would still be happy or if we lost that a long time ago.  I wonder if we were ever ment to be or if that was all just a dream.  Part of me will always love you, but I think it's finally time for me to let you go and move on with me life.  I will always remember you and all the good time we shared but it's time for me to move on.

Relationships

Trust, is that not a major part in a relationship.  It's the foundation to a good one right? So what happens when that trust is broken? Is that relationship also broken? And can it ever be fixed? These are the questions that haunt me right now. How are we able to form a relationship with someone if we are not able to trust them?
Honesty, that's also an important part to a relationship.  We're also not able to form a worthy relationship without honesty, because without honesty the relationship would be nothing but a lie. But if we truly love someone? Then shouldn't we be able to do all of these things without thinking? We should just know to do these things.
This leads me to my next question, what is love? According to the bible Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, and always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails...  This is the way a relationship should be.  I know i'm still young but i'm already looking for something like this. Sure I may have that now and i'm too blind to see it, but I can't wait for that day when I meet the right guy who is able to show me all these great things. I just have to have faith that God will open my eyes to him when the time is right.

When God Writes Your Love Story

I can't wait for this to happen to me someday!
I don't know if I can ever fully convey the awesome wonder of what it was like to have a God-written love story. During my entire romance with Eric, I was so aware of the fact that it wasGod who was leading each step, guiding each conversation, painting each sunset, and standing over us with a smile. The cheap, imitation romance I'd known before simply could not be compared to this new kind of love I had discovered. I was daily amazed that I had come from a place of heartbreak, confusion, and compromise in relationships, to a dream come true. I had discovered a kind of divine love that can't even be found in fairy tales, simply by giving God the pen of my life's story and allowing Him to write each chapter. --Leslie Ludy, When God Writes Your Love Story

How I feel about you

When I’m having a bad day I sometimes close my eyes and think of you.  I think of how happy I am that you are apart of my life and how different I would be without you.  You’ve shown me so much in this short period of time.  You’ve taught me that not every guy is going to hurt me and for that I thank you.  You’ve also taught me that it’s not a horrible thing to want to actually be with someone.  When our relationship started I never for a moment thought that after only a month of dating I would possibly be thinking I may love you.  It scares me to death that I might be setting myself up to get hurt again, but I don’t think you would ever do that to me.  I trust you.  That is not an easy thing for me to do.  I don’t even trust half of my friends or family.  Our relationship honestly doesn’t feel like an actually relationship.  Every time we hang out it feels like I’m just hanging out with my best friend.  I love how we can go a week without seeing each other and be fine with that, but the moment I see you it just feels right.(Like I actually just sat here for a moment trying to think of words to describe it.)  With you I don’t have to hide who I am, I can just be myself and you don’t judge me for that.  Though I have only known you for a short period of time I feel so special to have you as my best friend.  And I know you don’t like it when I use quotes from other people and you don’t find it to be original but I’m not the creative type.  I just can’t find the right way to tell you how I actually feel about you.

Best Friend.

My English teacher yesterday told us that we will be writing a paper about our best friend.  I later asked her if I had to choose only one and she said yes.  I've been thinking about it and I have come to the conclusion that I don't have a best friend.  I actually have quit a few.
I have Abbi, someone who has been a dear friend to me for sometime now and is considered my other half.  We share so many great memories together and are still in the process of making new one and having new quotes along the way.
Halle, who I have known since 4th grade and think of like a sister.
Beth, someone who back in Jr. High were the farthest from being a friend and now I do everything with, and entrust so much information to .
Ellen a girl from my church whom I have gotten to know a lot through out this last year and could not picture my life without.
After thinking about this for a long time I still don't know who exactly I'm going to write this paper on.  I know this is not going to be an easy choice, but I have to choose one.  Don't get me wrong I love all of them but I have to make a choice for this paper.  If any of you read this I just want to inform you I could not picture my life without you and though we may go through hard times I still love you no matter what and plan on staying in touch with you through out my life.

Once Upon A Time?

"Once Upon a Time"... We've all heard of it, and we've all wanted it to be real at some point.  Some of us are even willing to put ourselves out there knowing there's a chance they may get hurt.  We put ourselves out there hoping there is another person out there that will do the same and we hope they will not hurt us.  We hope the person we want to start a "Once Upon a Time" with feels the same way as we feel about them too.  We hope that they will catch us when we fall and help us grow in many ways, but what happens when we take that leap of faith and hope that that one person is going to catch us but never does... Don't we just end up getting hurt?  So why should we start a story off with Once Upon a Time when there may never be a "Happily Ever After"?